Happy New Year!

New Years Day will always mean a little something more to me, at least I think so. One year ago today Brigham started his journey into this world. I'm not sure if it was paranoia or mother's intuition but it was like I knew that a baby would be here for us in 9 months. For anyone who knew us, they knew this wasn't our plan quite yet. I was scheduled to finally graduate college December 19th and ever since Mark had decided 3 months after we got married that he was suddenly ready for kids, I had said that we could try any time after April 1, 2009 that way I could graduate on schedule. So January 2 of last year I started thinking of all the scenarios that could play out and what my options were if I had a baby in September. I knew immediately that I would have to postpone my last semester of school (student teaching) until the following January. Almost everyday for the next 16 days I got excited about the thought of a surprise baby and sad that I would have to move student teaching to the next spring and miss out on so much time with my new baby. I wasn't so disappointed that I would be graduated 6 months later that I had planned but that I wouldn't be able to give our child my undivided attention because I would have a lot of work that I would need to do for that last semester of college.
All month long I kept telling myself I was just paranoid and that the "changes" I was experiencing were all in my head. Obviously they weren't
In 3 days I start student teaching. I've been dreading this moment since last January. Last April we had students who were finishing up their student teaching come speak to us and tell us how hard it was. They were getting to their classroom at 6:30 every morning to prepare for the day. They wouldn't leave until 6 or 7 each night. They had no social life at all. Needless to say, the closer I became to January 4th, the more worried I was about how in the world I would be able to do this, until this week. This week I've felt calm and ready to jump in. I couldn't wait for January 4th to get here so I could get started!
I am sad that I won't have all day everyday with my little man but I had 3 1/2 months which is more than a lot of people get. Our mom's are going to be taking care of him for a couple of hours each day which is awesome for a few reasons : it's free, it's not a daycare, it's only for a couple of hours each day, and it's our moms (they obviously know what they are doing so they can totally be trusted!!).
We are so excited to have Brigham in our lives and wouldn't trade a thing for him! He is our little blessing and we really do love him to death. Sometimes Mark and I say we don't want any more kids so that we can give him all our love and a super fabulous life with just the 3 of us. Recently I have moved away from this way of thinking and I can't wait to have more kids! If given the option, I would say let's go for it right now but we are going to need Mark to graduate first before anymore kids are in our future and that is 2 or 3 years away.


Thank you Brigham for an unexpected and exciting 2009! New Years Day will never be the same and your dad can't wait to use this day to make things awkward for you when you are older. I'm so sorry in advance.